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I was in yoga class a few weeks ago, uncomfortably situated in Hanumanasana (split pose), when the teacher said of its namesake deity, “Hanuman had super powers. But he forgot that he had them.”

Just like me! I thought. And as my hamstrings stretched and strained, I remembered that I, too, have super powers, though I generally live in a state of amnesia about them.  The main symptom of this kind of amnesia, is that I experience a large disconnect between who I am and how I feel about myself.  I forget things like I’m smart, pretty, funny, a good writer, a kind soul, a feisty spirit.  Basically, I forget that I have lots of positive qualities, and sometimes, I don’t remember that I have any at all.

Occasionally I find myself in situations where this inner/outer split becomes apparent.  I will be caught by surprise by the way someone relates to me as pretty or smart or talented.  I will think, for an instant, Is that me they are talking about?  And in these moments it is incredibly painful to see how wide and vast the divide is, and I wonder if I will ever be able to bridge that gap, to unite my inner experience with outer reality, to remember that I have super powers, and to get to enjoy using them.

For me, the Kryptonite is disappointments, fears, worries, and wounds.  But it can take as little as the hustle and bustle of day-to-day life to dull the shine of radiant super powers.

The story goes that a curse was placed on Hanuman, which caused him to be unable to remember his own ability unless he was reminded by another person.  And finally, someone does, saying to him:

You are as powerful as the wind;
You are intelligent, illustrious and an inventor.
There is nothing in this world that’s too difficult for you;
Whenever stuck, you are the one who can help.

What forgotten super powers do you possess?  May this be a reminder to remember…

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